Sealevel, North Carolina
On the day I found out I was pregnant, Tony and I decided that we were going to move back to the East Coast. That was in the Spring of 2013. I had our daughter in December 2013, and we moved back to Morehead City, North Carolina (my hometown) this past August. One of the things about being home that I got the most excited about (aside from family, friends and the being close to the Atlantic ocean) is going to the NC Seafood Festival with Tony and Audrey.
Since I lived in Virginia with my Mom most of my childhood (with the exception of a couple of years), I never really got to experience this festival as a kid. So, even though Audrey is still too young to fully appreciate the rides and games, I was eager to see how she would react to the crowds and overall energy that is the Seafood Festival. Turns out, she likes to people watch just like I do. And, she likes the local cuisine too. As adventurous as Audrey is, she stayed with her grandparents while Tony and I returned for the fireworks this time.
Here are a few photos from this year’s festival:
All in all, we had a great time. And, it is safe to say…it just feels good to be home.
I won’t sit here and pretend that I have never told a lie. But, I have always found it perplexing that in our society being honest is rude and lying is construed as being kind. People lie to themselves to just get through their everyday lives, or to feel better about their past poor choices. Politicians lie to keep or gain a position of power. Companies lie about their products, or their values, to keep making money. And, so on.
I tend to lean towards truth. Brutally so. To a point that some people cannot handle it. When I was 15, I decided I would no longer deny reality just because other people refuse to deal with it. If you lie to someone to save their feelings, and then later on they found out you lied, what happens? You guessed it, they get their feelings hurt anyways, and it is usually worse. So, what does lying really accomplish?
If you are looking to be told things are not as bad as they are, then do not ask me. You will be disappointed. And, if you have some terrible news for me, please don’t spare my feelings by lying. Whether it is something big like I’ve only got two days to live, or if it is something small like my meatloaf sucks. Because, once I find out you were lying, whatever amount of respect I had for you at that point, will quickly start to fade away.
In the past couple of months. Audrey, Tony and I have all had quite a few firsts…Here are some of the highlights:
This is only the beginning, my sweet little munchkin! We have SO much learning and exploring to do. The sheer amazement and wonder, and joy on your face when you experience something new is one of the best things I have ever been witness to. You inspire me in so many ways, and I hope that one day you feel the same about me.
So, I was coming out of Target the other day, and I witnessed the funniest and the saddest thing all at once. It was raining off and on all day, so everything was pretty soaked. This little boy, who was maybe ten years old, was going in with his mom. Out of nowhere, he jumps and sprawls on top of one of the big red balls outside of the front door of Target, and sings, “I came in like a wrecking ball!!!!”
It was one of the funniest things I had ever seen. I was laughing pretty hard, actually. My eyes got all watery. He sees that I am watching him and for a split second, seems embarrassed. But, once he realized how funny I thought he was, he was quite proud of himself.
I keep walking, laughing the whole way. Then, all of the sudden, his mom starts yelling at him. “Why did you do that?” I mean, she was really screaming at him. She said, “Now, your pants are all soaked! Now, you can’t go in the store, and you’re not getting in my car all soaking wet!”
So, I’m thinking so what? Are you going to make him stand outside in the rain? I mean, here this little guy is giving us comedic gold, and all his mom could do was scream at him. I get that yeah, now he may look like he peed his pants, but, he didn’t. And, I know, who knows what kind of day that mom was having? But, come on. That should have cheered her up.
The more I have think about this, because it stuck with me for some reason, the more it bothers me. I feel like parents like that suck the funny and curiosity out of their kids. I truly hope that no matter what life throws at me, or takes away from me, that I will never be so angry at the world that I crush Audrey’s spirit.
Hopefully, seeing how funny I thought he was sticks with him somehow. Because, honestly, he was funny. And, I bet that he tries to express it all the time and gets in trouble for it. His mom struck me as an angry woman. But, like I said, who knows what kind of day she was having, and maybe she is not always like that. I hope for his sake, that is true.
I look forward to Audrey getting dirty and being silly. Things can be replaced. Clothing can be washed, presoaked in OxiClean sometimes maybe, but they can be cleaned. Those moments when she is at her silliest, or most curious, those are some of the most important moments of both our lives.
Well, it has been quite some time since I have thought about writing; let alone had time to write. Audrey keeps me pretty busy! She recently turned three months old, and she is AMAZING! Motherhood is unlike any other adventure I have been on. It does not, however, leave too much time to process worldly issues or write about them.
But, Audrey has a great temperament and is starting to entertain herself a little bit more every day. So, since I am working from home and it is part-time, I will be devoting a little time to my creative outlets again.
Those who know me well know that I was always very ANTI-having kids, for as long as I can remember. I had my reasons. I know that I am not the first person to say that. And, I know I will not be the first person to say this, but I am saying it anyways…Audrey is the BEST thing that has ever happened to me. Becoming a mom is the BEST thing I have ever done.
Tony is a great dad. I knew he would be. Audrey lights up every time she interacts with him. As easy as Audrey has made things on us thus far, that does not mean we have not had rough moments as we’ve came through these first 3 months of being parents. (Don’t ever let anyone tell you that parenting is easy) And, I know that we have years of trying moments to come between the happy ones. But, that’s life and I think that we make a good team, and we will be able to grow as Audrey grows.
I look forward to watching her learn about herself and her surroundings. One can only hope to fill their child with wonder and curiosity for the world around them. Audrey already strikes me as smart and determined, and funny. Spending a lifetime exploring the world with her and Tony is something I want more than I ever thought I could ever want anything. Life is funny that way.
Due to recent life events, I have not been very focused. A lot of people know already, but we recently found out we are pregnant! I am days away from the second trimester.
This of course is great news! Tony and I are both excited, and so are our friends and family. I have been fortunate mostly in how I feel, but I have had a few rough days. It has made me less excited about riding in a car for extended periods of time looking for things to shoot. I did have a great weekend a couple weeks ago where I felt ‘normal’ enough to venture out. So, we took full advantage. These are a few things we came across:
After almost year and a half of constant pain, Tony finally had his disc replacement surgery.
This is also VERY good news. He is still healing, but already feels better. He has a long road ahead of physical therapy, but it will all be worth it.
I plan on taking advantage of the ‘ease’ of the second trimester and getting in some simple pleasures while I can! We know we are in for quite the adventure, but we will be as ready as we can be. We have to get be, right?